He told himself it’s just a game. He attempted to meditate but the heart didn’t care. He waited, hoping the meds would kick in quickly but he could not take his eyes off the screen, turn off the power or change the channel. One thought hung like an errant pass, this is what he wanted; what he had waited for. The actions on the screen ceased to have any meaning as the pain in his chest was overwhelmed by the aching in his head;  the hope the meds would work collided with the wish he had not taken them.

The game ended badly. With a sense of sadness and relief he was aware of his heartbeat returning to normal.  But normal was now redefined and he wondered if indeed there had been damage to the heart which now reverted to its arrhythmic beating with very little coaxing. A bubble seemed to grow in his chest in place of a beat of the heart. The bubble grew bigger in step with the length of the pause which seemed to him like holding his breath. He could control the pause in just the same way. Madness, Dr. Manix would send him away if she knew how he toyed with his mortality.

He was very well-informed on the subject of addiction. He struggled for years to break free of the drugs that held him hostage for so long. After 8 years without a drink or drug, a heart doc decided his problem was depression and prescribed Effexor. 4 years and 6 drug cocktails later he stopped taking them all. In all the time he was taking the depression meds he never felt they improved his depression. In all the time he was on them he didn’t seem to care about his appearance or diet or life. He told Dr. Manix about the times he would pray to God to please release him from this life. He told her he would never make a direct attempt to take his own life; unless you count killing yourself with a fork.

The epiphany was like a chunk of iron hitting the atmosphere and exploding into impossibly bright burning vapor; clearing away all previous pretense and anomaly, leaving only cold hard truth in its wake. Death was not his suitor, it was his punishment. Now he had only to discover what he was punishing himself for.

Dave’s Way, The Moonalice EP Collection

Author’s Note: I first came upon Moonalice via a shared link on Facebook. I remember the first broadcast I tuned into and wondered how I had not heard of this band before. I remember the first time I heard John Molo kick the band into overdrive in the middle of what was already a blistering improvisational jam. I came back the next night and the next and I have been on the couch tour ever since. Its every fan’s dream to be front row center every time their band performs and Moonalice generously provides that opportunity via their 5 camera HD Broadcast of every show they play.
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Moonalice is a band of seasoned musicians whose music engenders a communal experience where the listener and musicians feed and derive inspiration from each other. Their songs encompass a variety of genres from which extended musical improvisations spring forth, evoking a sense of adventure and exploration best enjoyed with dancing shoes on your feet. On the couch or on the dance floor, Moonalice always leaves you happy you were there.

“We invented Twittercast concerts, which are free broadcasts to fans over social networks. Our single, “It’s 4:20 Somewhere” has been downloaded more than 2.5 million times. We broadcast every show live via satellite in HTML 5, so you can enjoy them on your iPhone, iPad or Android without an app.” -Moonalice


Dave Way is a 3 time Grammy Award winner who has co-produced, engineered, mixed and mastered a series of EP CD releases for Moonalice.  The Dave Way CDs each contain five first rate Moonalice recordings.

Volume 1 includes the online hit, “It’s 4:20 Somewhere“.   Roger McNamee’s uptempo “American Dream Rag” describes some of the nightmare effects of the recent economic collapse while subtly reminding us that cannabis will get you through times of no money better than money will get you through times of no cannabis.

Volume 2 gives us a stellar version of “Stella Blue“(Hunter/Garcia). Barry Sless’ haunting pedal steel weaves effortlessly throughout Pete Sears emotional vocal. Barry’s solo at the end  begins as a whisper slowly driving the band into a magnificent thundering storm of sound. “Who Can Say” is Jeanette Sears admonishment of the powers destroying our home wrapped beautifully in soulful music by Pete Sears. “Foxtrot Uniform” details a clever Dear John message.

Volume 3 contains “Joker’s Lie“, Pete Sears brilliant response to a nightmare described  by his close friend.  The lyric can be viewed at Joker’s Lie . “Mr. Spaceman“(Roger McGuinn – Byrds) features an exceptional Jam during the last 3 minutes of the track.

In Volume 4 we are treated to Pete Sears’ beautiful ode to his wife Jeannette, “You and me“. “Silver Lining” from Roger McNamee is reminiscent of a Ricky Nelson top 10 hit. “Harry Ware” sounds like he was quite a man, as Pete Sears describes him in this biographical song.

Volume 5: “Nobody Knows” is another clever tongue in cheek tune from Roger McNamee; “Everyone has an opinion but nobody knows”.  Ann McNamee’s crowd favorite, “Real Deal” lives up to its title.

Volume 6:  “Live to Love” from Pete Sears delivers its positive message in a thoroughly enjoyable uptempo arrangement.  “Lost at Sea” does not lose its way. “Fair To Even Odds“, words by Robert Hunter Music by Pete Sears, is another example of how a Robert Hunter lyric informs exceptional music.

Volume 7: Pete Sears documents the plight of the Alaskan Eskimo, the land and the wildlife of our “Last Frontier“. “Happy Endings” reflects on that moment when you know your heart became one with another. “Coconut Wireless” showcases virtuoso Barry Sless’ composition and guitar skills.

Volume 8: “Rome Burns” is Roger McNamee’s compelling call to arms to save our planet.  Pete Sears delivers Dylan’s “Man in Me“. “Diana’s Up And Dancing” from Ann McNamee will be dancing in your mind long after it ends.

Moonalice is currently touring west coast venues through April. Their live jamming is reminiscent of the Grateful Dead where the music is magic, energy is king and dance is the tapestry on which the music is written. Catch any of their shows online via moonalice.com and you will come back again and again!

The EPs are all available on the Moonalice website as well as iTunes.

Website: http://www.moonalice.com/  Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/moonalice  Twitter: https://twitter.com/moonalice  Moonalice is: * John Molo: Drums, Vocals. (Bruce Hornsby & The Range, John Fogerty, Phil Lesh & Friends, The Other Ones, David Nelson Band). * Barry Sless: Lead Guitar, Pedal Steel Guitar, Bass. (Phil Lesh & Friends, David Nelson Band, Kingfish, Cowboy Jazz). * Roger McNamee: Rhythm Guitar, Vocals, Bass. (Guff, The Engineers, Random Axes, Flying Other Brothers) * Pete Sears: Bass, Keyboards, Guitar, Vocals (Sam Gopal Dream, Rod Stewart, Jefferson Starship, Jerry Garcia, Hot Tuna, John Lee Hooker, David Nelson Band, Phil Lesh & Friends). * Big Steve Parish: Road Scholar/Medicine Man/Storyteller. (Grateful Dead crew for 26 years, co-founder of Jerry Garcia Band) In the past, Moonalice also included G.E. Smith, Jack Casady, Jim Sanchez and Ann McNamee.


The now and temporary home of Steelrain’s music

Update: I will be moving all music content to www.steelrain.org soon. It used to point to icouldrules.com but now points to its own site. I need to fix some broken links and remove others as well as update and improve the old content which hasn’t been touched for over 7 years.


I have been using Soundcloud.com for maybe 6 months to upload and share my tracks. Now it seems they have put up a registration wall which has prevented some of the people, I have sent promo links to, from listening to them. So now it seems I have to work a little harder to make my tracks available. I’ll be uploading and linking to the .wav files on this page from now on.

Here is a you tube video of some acoustic original tunes I’m working on. Might want to start about 12 minutes in when I start getting comfortable with my sound.


Bring it on Home is a bluesy cover of the song we all know and love. The band is midi generated but uses recordings of real instruments.
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Dance of the Sativa is a recent composition during which I found myself imagining green buds dancing in a circle around me.

Filament was the very first new composition which came to me once I was able to start playing music again. The first recording I have of it was July 5th of last year.

Sea Sawng is a Jam that belongs to the very first song I ever composed. I’m working on the transition from song to jam and back which so far has not gelled.
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Sigitar came along shortly after Filament. I’ve made a slide presentation using the track as well.



When All the Love Was There



I Know You Rider



Paragon Park





The Dog Park